aloha

I should and want to do yoga today, we'll see if I get motivated. What a bad attitude!  Seriously though, we'll see. Maybe some good stretching will help my stomach a bit.

sad

Well, nothing has been progressing, yet again. I've come to a really good realization though, it's not really my fault for the time being. Ahh, that's not exactly how I meant to phrase it. Here's the explanation. A lot of people use this to explain their depression without having to.. explain.. their depression. Anyways, that's not me. I'm almost certain I have Seasonal Affective Disorder. Happens every year. My mother is worried because she sees it every year and wants me to deal with it. Vitamin D pills and tanning. I'm just starting to get things sorted out in that area but I'm looking forward to getting it under control. Side effects happen to be craving comfort foods.. at all times.. which is horrible. Well, I just want more than ever to be in shape and happy and on track with life. This is at least a step in the right direction. I can honestly say that at this point.. I'm truthfully unhappy with my body.

sucking

Again, I've been incredibly terrible. Help! Not really, but I think today is a good day to get things going again. Healthy food, some exercise, good plan. Just honestly, not happy with my size. At all, not in the least. My shape is GREAT, the size of it, not so much. Like I said last time, I'm only looking for 5 or 6 pounds to start off with. Get a start at things. Once I do that I think I'll be more motivated to shed the rest. It's not like I don't have the resources. Food is a harder thing to deal with, especially with going out for dinner often with friends or BF. Hmm. There are some really fun fitness classes in Walnut Grove I'm looking into joining still, but we'll see what happens. 

I have to go do some fitness with Jen, I'll make it fun for her and join in doing some stuff as well. 

Super Duper Computer

Apparently I'm not doing so well. I suck at this business. I keep saying to myself.. TRY HARDER, but it hasn't exactly gotten through my thick skull yet. 5 or 6 pounds is all I'm asking right now, I just want that as a start. WOULD BE NICE, YA DIG. Anyways, I guess I'll say I'm going to try hard. We'll see how that goes. Ugh.