I am so fed up with this, it starts again. I can't handle it not. It was the only thing that worked.

20 pounds down. A few more pounds and it will be the lightest I can remember being.. ever.  Even now actually. I feel good, but not good enough. 20 more days, hopefully 10 more pounds.

rivieramaya,cancun!

Almost 20 pounds! I did a 45+ minute run on Jen's treadmill. Sit ups. The work out video I have. Eating healthy. No wheat, no gluten, no dairy. At all. Haven't in like.. 3 weeks. Haven't had chocolate in over a month. I'm feeling better about myself, but not satisfied just yet. I have 20 more days to get in shape and I plan on utilizing every moment of it. Just like I have been. I'd be satisfied with another 10 pounds, if I can do more I'll be even happier. I want nothing more than a hot bathing suit body! Mmmyes!

Katie and I have decided that we will be working out intensely until MARCH 1st. We both know we want better bathing suit bodies and one month isn't that long to push ourselves, so we're doing it. Right now, I'm in better shape than I've been in in a LONG time. I made it past the weight line I haven't been past since high school. I'm proud and I'm at the point where I know I will not give this up. Today I played with my weights, sit ups, push ups, and an intense session of DDR. I was so sweaty it made me feel great. Now that something good has made it's way into reach, I'm really motivated to save more money and lose more weight. Mmm yes. AND whomeverrrrrrr it happens to catch the eye of, you know, I'll be even that much more grateful. YEAHHH BITCHES.

Never again. Ugh.

Shit.

Probably about 10 now.

fuck.

7 pounds down since wednesday, shows how much stress effects this.

hotyoga, please!

still going decent, however, I weighed myself today. no big surprise, however, right after I did 50 jumping jacks. tomorrow will be a workout-intensive day, as will all that follow. my body currently just does not leave me with the satisfaction I had or wanted even then. anyways, I'm not whining, just preparing for this. also, I need a bathing suit body for a month or two away.. duh. I'm doing well, I can feel it already. still have been sweet free for about a week now. pretty stoked on my current will power. yay me. I hate to say. this isn't all for me. 

so things have been going decently. I haven't weighed myself in a while because I am pretty sure I am where I was before christmas, however.. I think I've maybe dropped those few extra pounds I put on over the holidays. yes, in the end.. the holidays did conquer all. however, I have been eating better the past week! no sweets at all, trying to stay away from most fatty things too. good times. 

I don't really know where this entry was going other than.. I feel decent about how things are progressing and I'm feeling really good about sticking to my current "diet". :)

headache.

One day down, no sweets or fatty foods.

fuckmycomputer.

It's 7:30 in the morning, I realized just now that I would really like to see how much I can do in 10 days. Dance night coming up, I want to see how good I can make myself feel for that. So many reason, I just need something to happen, even if it's only a little. My plan includes 10 days without chocolate or sweets. If I want sweets, I'll eat frozen blueberries. Try to stay away from wheat because.. well it will help keep off weight.. and I have also been sick the last while because of my intake. Dairy, obviously none of that. Exercise daily, yoga daily and DDR daily. No matter what. I'll even utilize the free time I have at work by working on the 26 asana's for hot yoga that I have neglected. Also, I know that if I start going tanning my attitudes will be better and also it always seems to motivate me to lose weight. Getting naked in public to make your body hot and tanned always seems to do that.. l a w l. Anyways, yeah. I'm really tired so I'm going to go rest.. and then do yoga when Jennifer wakes up.